In 2002 and again in 2004 my dream of becoming an ordained Lutheran minister was shattered by a candidacy committee in the church. Since then I have struggled to find a new vocation but without success. I feel as if some essential and good part of me has been lost because of this experience. Although I am more sensitive now to those who suffer injustice, I am more anxious and less trusting than before. My life has been diminished and I am sad.
As I continue to worship in a Methodist church I struggle with the notion of forgiveness. I am currently reading The Sunflower by Simon Wiesenthal and the collected essays on forgiveness. I have also found Embodying Forgiveness by Gregory Lloyd-Jones to be helpful. Most of what we hear about forgiveness is psychological gibberish with no theological foundation. To speak of revenge and forgiveness is to present a false choice. There is a difference between vengeance and justice.
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