As an African American in this country (particularly in the south) fear is something you live with and experience on an ongoing basis. You learn to watch your back, watch what you say, check places out before going in, check groups out before joining them, check neighborhoods out before visiting them, and hope you won't be some officers accident or mistake.
Prejudice and hatred of various people for various reasons is rooted in the history of this country. If it wasn't you, it would be someone else. And remember - you are not alone. They still hate African Americans, Hespanics, immigrants, some Asians, and many Native Americans. Discrimination against Jews and Catholics remains and the Gay and Lesbian community continues to live and die in a circle of discrimination, hatred and fear.
Yet, there are a lot of groups who are trying to change things. A lot of good eople who open their minds and their hearts as they attempt to be "part of the solution". The YWCA in many states is concentrating on "acceptance programs". Programs that bring people of all cultures, races, and religions together.
Remember that people who hate you or discriminate against you because of your religion, your sexual preference, or the color of your skin are generally less educated and far less intelligent than you are. They buy-in on conversations without knowing the facts. They spill lies and untruths to motivate their masses. Through their hatred they prey on those they fear thinking it will quiet their ragging storms. They exist in this country and throughout the world and they always will.
Living in fear is a way of life for many. You are definitely not alone.
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