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Krista

i respond with admiration for your honesty on this issue.
this particular program has been a profound source of help to me, and i was so pleased to see it being rebroadcast, in the hope others might benefit.

recently my life came to what felt like a complete halt after a sustained depressive phase... during that halt, i gave this program repeated listens, even as i retreated from life and the world...

while i agree that in those times when coping with mere living is a feat enlightenment is near impossible, i somehow managed to find what i needed in it allthesame...
i found Palmer's lines about depression being "exhausting" and, "the hand of a friend pressing one down to a ground on which it is safe to stand" consistently pulling at me to listen deeper. i could agree on the exhaustion. but with little sense of will to survive, something in me felt frustration at waiting for the perspective that comes with time. with trepidation, but i'll probably look back on as more like defiance, i found myself giving myself up to the idea of the "hand of a friend" as being as true as my exhaustion. no fanfare, no dramatic revelation, but simple trust that Parker Palmer had learned a lesson and maybe i didn't need to wait a decade to see it proved right. i guess in my own way i threw in all my chips on it... a last ditch pitch...

and i began to feel my way through the experience as if the hand were present in the darkness. daring to ask the hand what it was pressing me down to. only time will allow me the opportunity to look back and see it all with perspective, to have any sense of enlightened meaning, to understand the gift of the dark companion...

but, it helped me turn to the safety and solidity of family and close friends over isolation, and pulled me forward into something like hope.
and so from what feels like a tiny, but nonetheless solid, patch of safe ground, for this program, and the others i listened to through the darkest days (including the L'arche pilgrimage, the jean vanier interview, the spirituality of addiction) you, Palmer, the other interviewees and the SoF crew, all have my sincere gratitude. as do those close to me who are helping to tend & protect this patch of safe ground.

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